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Today's quote from 'Meditations for women who do too much' is:
"You need to claim the events of your life to make yourself yours. When you truly possess all you have been and done, which may take some time, you are fierce with reality."
~ Flonda Scott Maxwell
We often find at some point in our lives the need to take stock, look back on our life and review who we are and what we have done with our lives. The effect can be quite strong, and for me it has led to an ongoing reflective process, through which I'm working on really being in the moment and seeing that I am at this point in time as a result of the conditions that arose in the past, and that where I go in the future is dependant on conditions yet to arise.
Through this process, I've found it's all too easy to get into the habit of beating myself up about all the bad decisions I made and the times when things didn't go so well. I've definitely been in this place many times (it's a recurring theme!), and I regularly get mini 'flash-backs' of memories where I did or said something really awful, which I often feel great regret (and often embarrasment!) about.
I do also sometimes slip toward the opposite end of the spectrum, patting myself on the back for all the great things I have done and the way I have lead my life - less so than the negative end but sometimes it can be more destructive.